Skip to main content

leap of faith

I read a quote ' Take a giant leap of faith, the chasm cannot be crossed in two small jumps '
and i said to myself... do i have the courage and fith to take the giant leap??
I have been so secure and safe on this side of the chasm.. would i ever have the courage to risk all and take the leap..make a life altering choice in one bold sweep, rather than the gradual change which we generally desire. I have often envied my friends who make 'radical' decisions , like giving foreign exams with nothing in the name of security , to fall back on. risking, having faith, dangerously ..believing...
It's beyond me. So on the auspicious occassion of the maharashtrian new yr i thought of ..well looking back on my life and choosing the 'giant leaps' and realised that in every day life we make these decisions. Decisions or choices ,which are a resounding yes or no..and not a 'maybe' .. 'hmm let's take it slowly' . Now for example on a cold morning when the geyser isn't working ..the first mug of cold water, or the fiirst spray of cold sshower.. i mean i keep thinking what would be the least painful way to have a bath , but in the end just grit my teeth and get it done with. Brrrr.Or like asking for leave from prof, you keep thinking for weeks on end what would be the best time, place and occasion to ask him the L question, till the run up ends..and u take that leap of faith, and enter that room, and say Sir ...ummm hmm i wanted leave of absence for 2 days... and suddenly just like that..u r soaring across the chasm.
It's not easy, but some things in life cannot be broken down into stages .. into the tiny steps..to a greater good..a higher plane.. NOPE . Sometimes what we need is one giant leap and not a small step.
Every day people around me are doing it..applying for the dream job, asking out the girl of their dreams, going bald, getting a tattoo , quitting their job, making that call..
Some say , these risk taking priviliges are for the moneyed only, others say it is for people who have no money of their own, they have nothing to lose. I think it takes a different type of strength , a strength of self.Where you can say to your self , i do this for me, whether i win or lose, I am a better person for having done it .
This new year i vow to take my leaps of faith..may be crash or safely land, but I won't know untill i let go of the fear, run up to the edge , and leap of the edge..

Comments

Meghana said…
Kuheli!!

You said it. It doesn't take much till you type out what seems like a harmless sms, but it feels like your intestines are all knotted up when it comes to selecting the 'send' option. At that point in time, bungee jumping seems simpler!

And yes, no amount of 'Main hoon na' from friends helps - it takes your own mind to push yourself to take the plunge...

Popular posts from this blog

where have all the toppers gone?

Its result time once more , and the news papers are full of proud toppers and their even more proud parents. Pictures of beaming kids surrounded by their proud parents, aunties uncles and muhalla walas. Each picture comes with its own tale of tireless strife and grim determination. ‘I studied long hours’ ‘I missed out on all the movies’ ‘I didn’t see any IPL matches’ ‘I left home at 4 in the morning for coaching classes’. I went to OPD this morning and while waiting for the first patient, I glanced at the head line ‘Science topper wants to be doctor.’ I smiled. The sisters and working staff inquired why I was smiling, but I just said “nothing.” A few doctor friends asked why I was smiling, and I said ,” the topper wants to be a doctor.” We all smiled, some smirked, some grunted and some out right guffawed. It’s an inside joke. Its been exactly 10 years since I passed my twelvth standard exam, and I wonder what the ‘topper’ will feel after te

5 Korean phrases every K drama fan should know

5 Korean phrases every K drama fan should know ./  5 k drama phrases which add drama in a Korean drama. Korean dramas or K-dramas are filled with sweet predictable clich├ęs , scenes that are repeated in almost every other drama, because they never seize to bring on the drama feels. Are you a k drama fan? Have you noticed how some scenes and some phrases get repeated in so many dramas? Here are a few of my favourite Hangul phrases which help heighten the drama in a Kdrama. Orae-man-iyo / Orae- mani- dae This phrase means ; it’s been a long time. The first version Orae mani iyo is the more formal way of saying it.it is one of my favourite phrases, a fabulous drama building phrase, it could be used when two arch enemies meet after a long time , one grew up to be a sleazy lawyer, the other an upstanding prosecutor. Or two high school sweethearts with a heartbreaking breakup meet in their adult life. It is a phrase filled with emotions; be it a veiled threat , a sense of l

Sharing my gifts , my life : Birthday retrospect 2021

  Happy 37 Birthday to me ! And for my readers of my annual birthday retrospect, this will be my 13 th year of writing a birthday blog. Wow, what a commitment. So, what was the one amazing thing I did this year ? I decided, just one fine day – to share . I started by sharing my food. It was the first time that we were not going home for Durga Pujo, we were in 2020 and the world was in Lockdown, I missed Pujo bhog, and I missedthe general excitement and enthusiasm around Durga pujo. I wanted to call a few friends over and serve them a typical Bengali meal, but we could not call people home- we were deep in N95 masks , and social distancing was in place. I decided to pack little meal boxes for my friends, and then decided I wanted to share the food with the everyone, and so decided to do a Bengali Pujo POP-UP . I ordered Gobindobhog rice, and kasundi and we made an elaborate menu with Rosogulla , deemer devil, and a non veg menu and a typical pujo bhog menu with khichuri, labda ,